Back in the Saddle?!
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Shabbat Shalom to all.
We are staying at a hotel/apartment on the beach in Delray Beach, FL. Believe it or not, this is the off season for South FL., so we found incredible rates. God is so good. It is amazing that I can sit here in the living room, windows open, look out a huge picture window, looking out over the pool and Tiki hut area, and see the ocean as the backdrop. I am watching a lizard scurry by. This close to the beach areas, there is another kind of lizard from the common ones you see everywhere in FL. This one looks like it has been pumping iron while using steroids. And it’s tale curls up.
I still struggle to do just about everything. But I notice that some things have eased. While remaining attached to oxygen, I can now take a shower without assistance, and only need a few minutes to recover. 2 weeks ago, I was down to sponge baths with assistance. Even 2 and 3 months ago, I dreaded taking showers, and since I was not leaving the house, I only took 1 or 2 showers a week, but needed my wife’s assistance, while I sat on a bench in the tub.
I am mobile with a the choice of a portable oxygen tank or concentrator. But I still need oxygen 24 hours. Kind of like being in space, being tethered all the time. I am able to walk short distances. Thursday, I walked down to the beach from our room. Roughly 300 feet with a couple of stops to catch my breath. I was carrying the portable oxygen tank, strapped over my shoulder. Could not really do a “walk on the beach“, but I did walk to the water and stand in about ankle deep. Just stood there for about 15 minutes, soaking up God and salt air. It was glorious.
I am awake more hours during the day now, and able to think more clearly. Yesterday, I tried to stay up and walk around too much. Pushing too far had me totally spent by the evening. My shoulder and neck muscles have been in pain from all the stress and low oxygenation and being out of whack. Had a Chiro adjustment yesterday, which helped with the pain. So, I was able to sleep better last night, and did not have the headaches that were interrupting my sleep the nights before. Wow, what a difference a full night of sleep makes.
I have always enjoyed my sleep and eating, but never really thought of sleep and eating as priorities. It was just something everyone did, and when I had things that I had to accomplish, I would often sacrifice either sleep or eating, or both. Call me silly, or stubborn, or in denial…. Whatever. But remember the “Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs Pyramid“. Physiological needs were the most basic need at the bottom of the pyramid. In some ways, I feel as though I have had to go back to that level, and make eating and sleeping my most important priorities.
Just this week, I have been in the mood to get back to work and make some phone calls, send emails, and try to get things rolling with our business down here in South Florida. Just yesterday, we met a woman who I believe will be our Ali Box (you Rodan + Fields people will know what I mean). After a couple of hours of work (keep in mind, this is nothing physical), I can actually feel the drain on my body even from non-physical work. In the past, when I recovered from exacerbations, I would jump back in the saddle. I always felt the saddle was mounted on a stallion, and I was ready to run full speed. Yeah, yeah, I know, I cannot do that anymore. I have come to the realization that have to scale back. No longer can I mount my saddle on the stallion, but must mount it on one of those children’s wooden horses on wheels. So whenever you see one of those, think of me. I won’t be the fastest out of the gate, nor will I be the first at the finish line. But I am back in the saddle and I will eventually get there.
Guido Angelo DiStefano